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japanumb @ 2005-12-20T03:22:00

2005-12-19T18:58:16Z

me! shut up and read more book.

japanumb @ 2005-12-05T13:42:00

2005-12-05T04:45:35Z

I cook healthy food.

my den.

I eat free lunch.

japanumb @ 2005-11-27T17:15:00

2005-11-27T08:56:48Z

I was reading my old crazy journals... it is mockingly hilarious but gives me the sorry eye to it at the same times. There were tons of reason I had to make a buff and pretend like I was something.

human is such a predictably stupid son of a monky, the history is obviously the consecutive repeat of the same events with just the different names and number. The human world is not evolving nor recessing, we are just moving towards the wrong direction. space is another subject that we can never imagine.
So I decided to go with the flow and let it take my soul to where I get minimal shame, minimal sorrow, minimal anger. coz this is the game, and it is all joke, so its not worth being afraid or regrettable really. Eventually all of this would suddenly end, whether we agree it or not.

Meanwhile, I will cerebrate the fact that we are happy lucky monkey.

japanumb @ 2005-03-13T18:26:00

2005-03-13T09:28:14Z

my new hair style with tiny pink hart tat in the middle;)

hello!

2005-02-24T18:06:06Z

I'm out of my parents house. now I'm living by myself thank godamn... of cause I'm paying for all the moving cost and the every month rent. It's on the 6th floor with big balcony. and In front of the apartment there is a beautiful park with river running through. I'm gonna go there every other morning for jog, and on Sunday I go near the river side and picnic like a New Yorker in central park, HA!

I should mention... I couldn't graduate. Until last November, partying and get stoned was all I could do, because I needed that moment to remove my attention from self-hurt. It amazing how such a pile of shit could actually happen on one person all at once. and such a long time I was unable to find a way to escape from all those dipression.

but you know, I feel like this year is gonna be a good year. I have never felt this hopeful for last 4years. I will pay for the university and take many interesting classes and read many books and meet many smart people and I want to be confident and enjoy the life.

because I have the right to do so.

japanumb @ 2004-12-28T01:12:00

2004-12-27T17:47:56Z

i am so ashamed and embarressed that i want to hyde myself somewhere really far and never show up untill everyone forgets how worthless i am. i learned not to use the same words over and over in a english sentence, but i just cannot find any better words to discribe myself now other than worthless. sorry i started this journal at the beginning to find vent for my anger and fret and fear and despair and.. but these days i only write like a stupid whore whose interest is only to party... but that's fine, i am just trying to think positive and try to have fun among of all i can get. it is devastatingly easy for me to get depressed. some might say self-pity is young. but there are some people exsists who carry those dipression all thier life. why there are so many alcoholics or suicidal adults.. i have this darkness not because i am young, but i an that kind of person, so far. i think i ashamed of my ignorance and powerlessness good enough now. but it doesn't go away, there is nothing I can do about it. i got something called like alopecia aerata for this shit, I was rather glad that i had that bald part on my head. because i used to be so worried if my intention of acting so despirate was only to drew everyones attention, but i don't give a fuck about it in fact. my concern is layed deeper than you can ever imagine. so please excuse me for being this negative and worthless motherfucker...

japanumb @ 2004-12-27T10:58:00

2004-12-27T02:01:02Z

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Alcohol

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Ecstacy

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Mushrooms

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Inhalents

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japanumb @ 2004-12-08T18:31:00

2004-12-08T09:38:11Z

OK
finally I have my internet access in my house again.
With brand new computer which is connected to good speaker. heehee

TEACH ME some interesting internet radio, and some sites where I can download good music!

japanumb @ 2004-12-03T12:35:00

2004-12-03T03:50:09Z

Thanx for everyone who wished me happy birthday. I had a best birth day ever! there were two totally surprise party noon and night. and I got two Robot that fight each other and a black light toy. oh oh everyone know exactly what I like. and I got phone call from everywhere, I'm so happy. and I never knew I had that much friends, I love you all so much<333
so yesterday night I was smoking the birthday present from K-chan while I was watching Boredoms DVD I got for myself. I had the glorious moment.

japanumb @ 2004-11-19T14:04:00

2004-11-19T03:15:41Z

Studying can be interesting when I am in the right mood but when there is some presser and stress I suddenly turn into the nervous depression. Right now my writing is in a deadlock. Maybe I am trying to do something beyond my ability. Mine is 20 pages minimum Bachelor theses. I would be at fault in trying to write the Master level content in 20 pages, plus there is no proof that i can write more than 20 pages with my limited knowledge on this topic. I really need to start doing something for a change.

anyway, I am leaving the theses behind and going back to my summer house in woods again this weekend, coz I am an ass... Me and my friends spend most of the weekend at my summer house this October and November. On this time of the year in japan, all trees turn to red and yellow and small animals are everywhere working before their winter sleep, it's beautiful. I have some pix of us on my fotopages, dancing and drinking and doing nothing.

I hope all of you would have a good weekend too<3

japanumb @ 2004-10-05T19:12:00

2004-10-06T03:02:26Z

The playlist for my first MixCD!

1. FSOL / It's my mind that works
2. Photek / 124
3. PCM / Varney
4. Ammo / an unexpected guest
5. Bluck Lung / autocratic zeit swift
6. Powder Pussy / Deviates Creen
7. Mlada Fronta / High Tention
8. Aural Blasphemy / (track no.4 from album Catharsis)
9. Asche / dist dj pt3
10. soman / (track no.1 from album unsatuldig?)
11. roger roter / drown delay
12. Klinik / zep tepi
13. Ms.Mono / psychonaut
14. soner / tone loc
15. Mono No Aware / worms
16. HIV+ / Apex Maximus
17. G-nox / venture Part4
18. Ah-Cama-Zote / Zmeu-kh

Thank you so very much for some of the people in livejournal for letting me use their materials without permission. but this is of cause not for sale and only listened by a small group of my friends who are interested in this kind of music, so please don't worry. Any advice, opinion and assault for my improvement are appreciated. Thank you. I'm still having hard time finding the Que point, so this time I used relatively easy tunes with clear beat to mix. Next time I might play more minimal and down tempo oppressive music;)

Lately, I've been having too much fun at camping on weekends. I feel like I'm turning into a chill person.

japanumb @ 2004-09-15T18:05:00

2004-09-15T09:34:37Z

my new tat I got this monday came out kinda shitty. It looked nicer when　I designed on a flat paper, I wanted all the lines to be straight. but my body is not flat... i guess it's my fault. I also got a pink hart on my head too, the part I lost my hair was just perfectly bald to be inked. I have to ask someone to take picture of it for me, I can't.

I had the rose from 3years ago, this time I made it listen to music and let it stand infront of japanese flag that is bleeding.

珍しく（ていうか始めて）同年代で気になる子がいて、メールのやり取りをマメにしてる訳だけど、私が「私は一筋縄ではゆかないよ、好きで彼氏いない歴２１年もやってるんだからね、フフン」って、とっておきの台詞を言ったら、「いままで好きな人もいたやろうし処女でもないやろ？だとしたら普通やん。ただ形にはまってないていうか表面的にそう見せてるだけちゃう？」なんてスラッと言われてしまったわ。　まさか同年代に容赦なくそんな事言われるとはね・・久しぶりにタジタジ。　やはりストレートなアプローチに弱い私であった。

one more post before I go off.

2004-08-25T15:32:12Z

Listen! I got a circular loss of hair. I found it yesterday.
Feel free to give me gifts and cheer me up via surprise call or e-card.
I recommend you to refer to my Amazon Wish list when you were considering of giving me something. the URL is on my web;) oh no, please don't be too sorry for me, I'm rather comfortable with this bald part. now that i can prove you and myself that I was not fakier than we imagined. I feel secured. "T.G.I.B.(thank god I'm bald)"

japanumb @ 2004-08-24T16:14:00

2004-08-24T07:23:49Z

I'm off to India for vacation with my mother.
I'll come back with lots of pix, maybe second week of Sep;)
till then bye bye baby<333

japanumb @ 2004-08-17T16:57:00

2004-08-17T10:24:57Z

two o'clock in the afternoon, still no one can't stop dancing .

nature is the god.

though I cannot swim...

*trees and sun light, moon light, and water, dirt, grass, rain.. everything that is nature is so amazingly beautiful and gives me the most brilliant image that is beyond my imagination, but the most terrific thing is the wind. wind can read our mind. wind is the psychic. and most importantly wind is our friend.

*sometimes I think we are all living just for the base. the base of the music. and I feel how cheep and mean less the human is, living just for music; base. and sometimes I become a base maker, i feel like as if I am the only one who can give birth to a base sound. without me there is no base in the world. thus I am a god. I make the base sound that everyone live for.

*sometimes I don't know anything. I don't know why I don't know. I ask my self what I don't know, and I realize I don't even know what. when I tell my friend about it, they nod and say they understand the feeling, that they feel the same. then I ask them to tell me about the feeling, and they say they don't know. but one thing is sure that when we got out of space and awake, we realize we don't know anything. but it's funny because whether we are in space or in reality, we don't know anyway. But it's kind of understandable, no one can answer why we were born and evolved. what are we dong here and what for?? what is the space anyway? what is the space made of?? space space space... what is the sound of shit happening, what is this all about. nonsense.

My Fuji Rock Festival time table

2004-08-03T08:19:02Z

Thursday 29th July
after long drive from the previous night, we arrived in camp site early afternoon, built our tent, headed to stage area and start dancing around 7, went back to tent after midnight, and slept well.

Friday 30th
*Little Tempo
*PE'S
*田野城寿男(beautiful saxophonist)
(3pm: Blanch Brake)
*PJ Harvey(I was at the very front, center)
*Pixies(still in center front, of cause)
*Lou Reed
*Basement Jaxx(I had no voice already)
(12pm: Dinner Brake)
*DJ Tasaka
*Skazi
*G.M.S
*Space Tribe(I was at somewhere in the space...)

Saturday 31th
*Ben Harper(half sleeping)
*Courtney Love(she's over)
*Yeah Yeah Yeahs(the best performance ever)
(9pm: Vomiting Brake)
*The Chemical Brothers(the best VJ ever, I was totally blown off)
*Santos(Fantastic)
*Buffalo Daughter(in the space again...)
*Armand Van Helden(around Mercury)
*Kenji Takimi(slowly landing into earth)

Sunday 1st August
since I had a job interview in Osaka on Monday morning, plus Morrissey was canceled, I left my friends and went back home alone. I slept over in the bullet train and found myself in Kyoto. Finally reached my room after 9pm.

muwahaha

2004-07-10T09:55:42Z

Prime MInister Sereal Rapist
http://asc.shacknet.nu/net/

Ishihara Bashing
http://www.bekkoame.ne.jp/~pyonpyon/hotnews/2004/0710.htm

☆Homeless Benefit Fiesta-Osaka☆
http://www.geocities.jp/osaka_tentcityevent2004/

japanumb @ 2004-07-08T19:54:00

2004-07-08T11:05:47Z

Mazyer than ever! Coz, while I was reading, I realized that self-hatred and self-loving can both exist in one person at the same time. Things that I thought it could never happen to a person. So I feel like now I can see the puzzle pieces that were spreading apart in my mind, all come to gather and started to make one direction. See, I always felt guilty that all my humor is based on self-mockery but I was comfortable when my wound is open. Furthermore my cat has the devils name and I have played Chopin so well when I was in elementary. Decisively I’m writing theses about Shelly! Fucking hell. Romanticism the shit that happen to me. I deserve! ::MOCK::
I just had to say this...

It was the day the sky was about to cry...

2004-05-20T15:51:23Z

I happened to see a movie Things You Can Tell Just By Looking At Her on cable last night. It turned out really good. It's probably the best of all I have seen in this couple of month. I had to cry at the end of most of each episode. I really wish THE man I used to know could watch the movie as well.

I also went to my friends university orchestra concert on last Thursday, and I weeped and weeped over Tchaikovsky's Romeo & Juliet. It was the first time I cry for classic music. Thank you Yo-chan for the wonderful experience.

and I sobbed myself in front of Mari-chan, on I guess it was last friday... during lunch time at university cafeteria. I was too concerned about the recent discord between us, but then she mended my nerve with her sober advice.

Finally, after I hanged out with milpheyyu(I forgot when) and had three bottle of beck's in early afternoon. I felt not enough, back in my room I drunk Iichiko rock until I got maudlin.

oh and I wailed early this week because I hit my toe on fridge corner, and my pinky nail was almost came off.

For Nagoya folks
I wound't recommend you to go to club MAGO anymore. I personally think they suck after they remodel the interior. Now It almost look similar to the club CODE in Tokyo, but they lucks underground atmosphere and the lightning is too blight.
Instead I found a nice bar under the elevated JR railroad between Turumai and Kanayama. there is a real wrestling ring at the middle of the bar, and on Tuesday and Thursday some pro-wrestler would practice fighting in front of the customer there. I accidentally found the bar tonight while I was killing time at Turumai before the Adam Cooper ballet show: On Your Toes would start.

Ich mochte so oft wie moglich gute Musik horen!
Ich mochte so wenig moglich arbeiten!!
Ich mochte so selbststandig leben!!!
Meine Eltern fragen sich, ob sie bei der Erziehung einen Fehler gemacht haben...
Bekommen ich heuet keinen kuss?

Ps. I realized Guns'n roses civil war on drizzling spring morning makes you tear.

pictures

2004-05-04T17:27:35Z

my air gun for survival games. I love THAT cookiemonster, but I don't care about it in general

I know, it's shitty, I'm not a DJ, someday when I'm better, I'll get pioner.

I know, It's old and huge, but she's doing ok.

last saturday was a summer weather, so we went down to the beach which is at 15 min far from my house by car .

親父の自慢の、祖母の墓　my grandma's grave

poseing again bitch

the most lovable sisters of mine, who's real name is
Chiyoko Luciferin Tsujimoto; the black one, and
Fujiko Monroe Tsujimoto; the white one.

Attention!

2004-04-25T11:53:19Z

イラク・ファルージャ近郊で抵抗者グループによって拘束されていた
民間の日本人５人の解放されましたが、根本的問題はなんら解決
していません。それどころか、「自己責任論」や「迷惑論」を持ち出し
て問題を誤魔化しています。とんでもないことです。(私のいつも
仲良くしている友達も平気で「あっあれは自業自得でしょ」って言うからねぇ、唖然とします)

そんな状況のなかで、今朝（４月１９日）、「自衛隊イラク派兵差止
訴訟の会」として小泉首相、川口外相、石波防衛庁長官宛に
要請文を出しました。

昨日（１８日）、スペインのサパテロ首相が６月３０日の撤退期限を
待たずに約１４００人のスペイン軍を撤退させる方針を表明しました。
世界１９１ヶ国のうち、現在イラクに派兵しているのは米英をはじめ
として計３６ヶ国。シンガポールとニカラグア（えっ！ニカラグア派兵してたんですか？どこにそんな金があるの？？？）はすでに撤退しました。
スペインと同様に、すでに撤退を表明またはその可能性を示唆して
いる国はニュージーランド、ホンジュラス、タイ、ブルガリア、フィリピン
など。撤退か否かで揺れている国はカザフスタン、ウクライナ、オースト
ラリア、イタリア、韓国、ブルガリアなどです。ＮＡＴＯは現在もなお
イラクへの派兵問題は議論すらせず、アラブ連盟（２１ヶ国と１機関で
構成）は米英による占領の終結とイラクへの主権返上を行うための
基本的な措置を国連に引き続き強く要請しています。しかし小泉首相
は１８日、今後も自衛隊を駐留させる考えを表明しました。

私は、「自衛隊イラク派兵差止訴訟」を呼びかけた者として、また、
日本社会の主権者の一人として、訴訟の会の仲間と相談・協議し、
想いを以下のように書きまとめて送付しました。

皆さんの周りの方々にも転送するなどして一人でも多くの方々と
共有してくだされば嬉しいです。（っじゃ自分のジャーナルに貼らして頂きます）

池住義憲（いけずみよしのり）
国際民衆保健協議会（ＩＰＨＣ）日本連絡事務所　代表
〒470‐0131愛知県日進市岩崎町竹ノ山１４９－５４９
(Tel/Fax:　０５６１－７３－３４２３）
（E-Mail:　ikezumi@mtb.biglobe.ne.jp)

　（この「メール通信」はひと月に１～３回、ＮＧＯ・市民運動などで
　知り合った私の友人・知人約１３００名の方々にＢＣＣで送信して
　いるものです。受信不要な方がおられましたらご遠慮なくお知らせ
　ください。）

（転載・転送歓迎です！）
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２００４年４月１９日（月）

内閣総理大臣　小泉純一郎様
外務大臣　　　川口　順子様
防衛庁長官　　石波　　茂様（←お前その前に年金払えよ！！！）

私たちは「自衛隊の速やかな撤兵」と「米英の軍事占領を止めさせる
ための平和外交を行うこと」を日本政府に要求します（要求します！）

　私たちは、「自衛隊のイラク派兵差止め」と「自衛隊のイラク派兵が
違憲であることの確認」を国に求めて、去る２月２３日および４月１４日
の２回にわたって名古屋地方裁判所に提訴した「自衛隊イラク派兵
差止訴訟」の原告（２３６３名、４月１４日現在）です。
　この度、イラクで武装勢力によって拘束されていた民間の日本人
計５人がイスラム聖職者協会や英米軍のイラク軍事占領に反対する
数多くの市民グループの働きかけなどにより、無事に解放されました。
しかし問題はなんら解決されていません。今回の二つの日本人拘束
事件が起きた原因は、国際法に違反してイラクに軍事攻撃し今もなお
軍事占領している米英軍指揮下に、日本政府が「イラク特措法」に
より自衛隊を派兵していることであることは明らかです。拘束された
日本人５人とその家族の「自己責任論」や「迷惑論」を持ち出して問題
の本質を誤魔化してはいけません。
私たちは、こうした事件の再発防止と、そしてなによりもイラク全土の
治安の回復とイラクの市民の生命と安全を取り戻すために、以下の
二つを日本政府に要求します。

１．イラクおよびクゥエートに駐留している自衛隊を速やかに撤兵して
下さい（テロに屈して逃げる訳にはいかんなどと言う奴は張り倒す）

　今回の日本人拘束事件発生の有無に関わらず、日本政府は自衛
隊を速やかに撤兵すべきです。理由の第一は、イラクへの海外派兵
は従来の政府見解によっても憲法違反だからです。憲法９条は第１項
で「戦争を放棄」し、「武力の行使」や「武力による威嚇」もしないこと、
第２項では国に対して戦争のための戦力を持つことも、また戦争を
行なう法的な権利（交戦権）も禁止しています。自衛隊存在の違憲性
を留保したとしても、戦闘行為が続いているイラク（戦地）に無反動砲
や個人携帯対戦車砲などで重武装した自衛隊を派兵していること
自体が憲法違反です。海外への派兵は明らかに「自衛」の目的を
超えています。また、自衛隊が行なう「安全確保支援活動」、すなわち
米英軍に対する後方支援活動（占領軍に参加する武装兵士や物資
の輸送など）は明らかに「武力行使」にあたり、憲法９条に反します。
国家は憲法上認められた権力だけを行使し得るという立憲主義の
原則を否定しないのであれば、日本政府は速やかに自衛隊を撤兵
しなければなりません
（だからぁ本来なら完全非武装地帯になるはずの国なんです）。
　理由の第二は、昨年３月２０日以降、英米軍がイラクに対して
行っている行為は、何の正当性も大義もなく、国際法に違反した
「侵略行為」（軍事占領も侵略行為）です。日本政府はそうした米英
中心・米英主導の暫定占領当局（ＣＰＡ）指揮下のイラクに重武装の
自衛隊を派兵し、国際法違反の侵略行為に加担しています。今回
の２つの日本人拘束事件は、まさにこのことによって起こったのです。
私たちは、日本政府が自衛隊を撤退させなければ、今後もさらに
こうした事件が発生することを危惧しています。
４月上旬のファルージャでの米軍の掃討作戦（５日間でファルージャ
市民６００人が殺害）、昨年３月以降でわかっているだけでも１万人
をはるかに超える「無辜のイラク民間人」の殺害、都市や農村の
破壊、内政干渉、民族自己決定権の侵害、「放射能兵器」とも言わ
れる劣化ウラン弾やクラスター爆弾使用による多大な被害を受けた
イラク市民は、米英がやっていることが不法な軍事占領であること
を身体でもって知っています。日本は米英軍がやっているそうした
侵略行為を支持し、加担しているのです。（日本人も殺し屋じゃ！）
日本政府はこの過ちを
反省し、自主的に、速やかに自衛隊を撤兵することを決断して
下さい。

２．米英の軍事占領を止めさせるための平和外交を行って下さい

　国際法に違反してイラクで行っている米英軍の侵略行為を即時
中止して撤兵するよう米英国政府に働きかけて下さい。
　去る４月１６日、米国政府は６月末の主権移譲後のイラク暫定
政権づくりにあたり、米政府が人選した現在のイラク統治評議会
を解散し、政権の主要な顔ぶれについては国連が改めて任命
するというブラヒミ国連事務総長特別顧問の提案を受け入れる
ことを表明しました。しかし一方では主権移譲後の米軍駐留の
継続や“過激派”制圧方針の堅持を強調するなど、米国の主導
的役割を保持しつつ国連を利用するという米国の意図が明確に
表明されています。
　日本は、いかなる国際紛争があってもそれを解決する手段
として、戦争や武力の行使または武力による威嚇を永久に放棄
することを世界に誓った国です。その国の首相として、米英両国
政府に対し、国際法違反の軍事占領を一日でも早く止めさせる
よう働きかけて下さい。イラクの人たちが真の主権回復が円滑に
できるようにするために次の三つのことを働きかけて下さい。
第一にイラク全土での停戦を直ちに実現すること、第二に可能な
限り速やかに米英を中心とする占領軍の撤兵を実現すること、
第三に新生イラクを作り上げる自決権はイラク人の権利である
ことを踏まえ、米英占領軍が関与しないイラク人のイラク人に
よる主権「回復」プロセスを作ること。憲法９条を持つ国の首相
としてやるべきことは、こうした「平和外交」です。（日本と世界の他の国々とは、世界平和に対するスタンスが全く違いますから、全世界が戦いを正当化する日が来たとしてもわが国だけは断固として、ほとんど盲目の勢いで戦わない事を唱えていかなきゃならん国なんです）

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japanumb @ 2004-04-24T08:45:00

2004-04-24T12:21:45Z

that was me who wanted to change other people, and forcing them to think the same. I tried to make them numbed and hope less cynicalists as well. that was me who were messed up by media, media made "love" look so pathetic, but what is life all about without love?

I got real drunk last night, i don't remember anything after i got off from taxi and and enter the front door. I woke up in my comfortable bed dressed in clean pajama. I guess my mother helped me for all this. I love my mother, I respect her and she is my everything. thus i really have to leave this house next year. It seems I can't make any movement without hurting her.

randomness

2004-03-30T12:18:37Z

The possible future boss came to Nagoya last sunday. He said he still willing to let me work there. But we didn't have any paper and signiture employed procedure...

CDs I bought this month from THIS online shop.
1.H.I.V + ABSTRACT & HARSH IRONWORKS CD 2,400yen
2.V/A-M.HARRIS/SILK SAW/NOT BRE / LOW END RECON - DARK HOP = 2,200yen
3.V/A-AH CAMA/5F/KLINIK/WINTERK / 2003 HANDS = 3,600yen
4.V/A-Y.GODS/NEUBAUTEN/NEITHER / MASK OF THE PEOPLE (SALE!) = 800yen
5.V/A-CONVERTER/MONO NO/ISZOLOS / SEQUENCE OR DIE -LTD 200 NO. = 2,200yen

Your head is under the sofa, you realised you didn't press the repeat butten for your CD player when the music really ended. You know you would feel like you got all the attention and become extremely uneasy when there is no music. but you are way too drunk and lacking for protein that you can't reach the remote control 2m away from you. You blame on yourself for left the computer speaker broken for more than half a year(and you wish you had the shiny iPod like him). But it's too late. You entreat for any music to listen to, you swear you wouldn't complain, even the trendy pop music is better than nothing, like the soldier in the last ditch eat his friends muscles and organs from hunger, I could take britnyspears and hamazakiayumi. But there were nothing. You start to smell the street pizza in the air. While you are slowly fainting away you think
"hmmm, Soman sounds OK. I think they are using really expensive high tech equipments to make their music, yo know. but I really wish they didn't insert words like fuck me so hard and yer baby and such. It suddenly make their music sound really cheep. yo know"...

ugh, I don't need any more cheep alcohole...

no one listen to you until you fart 2

2004-03-19T13:50:15Z

I have to mail or call G to talk over the shit that happened to us. Then I have to go police to pick up my license, go dentist, go university to make my next semester schedule, call Mr. Moss, make three more resume, give money back to Y.

I’m confused, and my English farts

I drunk too much last week. Five consecutive night of sho-chu. I wanted to pass out but I couldn’t. I wanted to be remember the good time 2001 summer while listening sade and cry, but I couldn’t because there were nothing romantic and fair indeed…

Thank you, Tokyo visit was ok. Ani Difranco show was fantastic. She played mostly from her two latest albums, and a few from reckoning, the last two songs were 32 flavor and two little girls. Opening act was nice jazzy Japanese three-piece band but I was not really listening because I was busy calling getting a night high way buss ticket for 5100yen and I had 5350yen something back then. Even if I could get 5100yen bus to Nagoya, It was obvious that I would have to somehow get extra 300yen to get back home. So I had to visit A on 6 o’clock in the morning when I got back to Nagoya. Thank you very much A;) Clubbing alone in Roppongi was fun too. I danced from 2am to around 8 at Club Spiral, which is in the same building with Club Vanilla and next to the Club Velfare. 6:10 to 6:30, the right side speaker was mine and the left one was for green t-shit dude. That was the only time the floor got empty. SO WHAT!

The best way is to talk nothing. That way you don’t have to show off your stupid ness and it will prevent you from having useless arguing with others. There are still too many people who thinks there is always a right answer and a wrong answer for every question. They can’t simply accept different opinion. They can’t even allow them to exsist. They could even be pissed by you for having different idea. Moreover, if you try harder to understand those people, they will call you hypocrit. You can't try to accept others different self, bacause they will suddenly think you don't have any opinion. You cannot understand it's the personal growth, when you lern something from someone, they will think you were just mind-controled or you were just manipulating others, then they call you a fake. They say if you have your opinion. you have to fucking hold on to it, nomatter what, even it get you to arguments and fights. They love poelpe who fight for their pride and ego. Those son of a bitch want to fight, to clear who win and lost! and They are fuckin looking for the conclusion, looking for the answer, looking for those cheep shit, you mothafuck I'll go shut the fuck up so you shut the fuck up!

Rifle or Turn Table ... I cannot afford for both...

2004-02-16T18:08:09Z

music
Holy Shit, check out the last comment on my December 24th journal, which i wrote about music of p. miles bryson. Believe it or not, HE: Miles Bryson replied to me! I think it's the real him. coz It sounds real. and I don't see any point for someone to pretending him to talk to me, unless he/she was my personal starker, or he/she was obsessed with random harassment, yo know... so yer, wow this is such a high tech world. I get to talk with all kinds of interesting people all over the place, including you:) Thank you and Mr.Bryson.
It's been almost two month since my last serious post
*I bought some electronic music CDs while I was gone.
*and went clubbing to get a cramp in my leg a few times,
*watched my love Sean Penn in his latest movie.
**The million seller book in US "POLYAMORY: the new love without limits" by Deborah Anapol was finally published in Japan early Feb.
**Nothing interesting and heartwarming happened in Nagoya Lesbian community.
***Oh and most importantly I got new roommates! They are really nice individuals, and we are so far getting along. Please check out their journal cats_power when you have times.
***I'm coming to Tokyo to visit my G and future Boss within two weeks. The future boss supposed to call me to tell when would be my best visit, so we can meet up easily and have negotiation about my future job. But He haven't called me yet. It really gives me the fidgets, my future boss makes my future job such a obscure and shit.. but my first priority of visiting is G, so I'm coming anyway.
****I actually feel that I have to write every details in each subjects but I'm just been too lazy tonight. I know no one would mind, but please be so kind to let me do that some other time, because writing without caring of spelling works like the therapy to me.
Survival Game
Today I had coffee with one of my friends whom I have known though clubbings since two years ago for the first time. All of my clubbing friends are nice and favorable when we meet after several driks, but I had never known of them during day time when they are sober. I found out this Natural Born Killer looking man Mr.A has a evil bro and their friends who does Survival Game together. I was extremely excited to hear that and kindly asked him if i could be the part of his game group. He admit it and even let me shoot his rifle. it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fun. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO violently feverish. So I decided to purchase one for myself. first i gotta save up my money though. ::temporary hostess time::

nothing nationalism mean, just being an idiot.